sudden sadness feeling come back to me again.
i really dislike this feeling.
it just dont go away from me : (

this world is so unfair.
why cant the world side me instead of others?
i really think that the world is totally unfair.

does hardwork paid off?
if it does why it didnt prove me wrong?
i really did my best and put in 101% EFFORT!!!

*everytime, i am so worry
i really scare something happen.
i do not want to lost you away.
i want you to be at my side as long as we can.
i want to love you for my life.
i want to take care of you
i want to be at your side.

today didnt attend lesson because I was very tired in term of mental and physical. I need to have some rest before NCC. Is just 1 more day, really not prepare for it. I hope I will have 1 month more to train so I can gain my confident and grow strong in K1.

Now should be doing PP but in the end still come to blog. OMG!! PP draft submission is like 2 weeks more? I only did half way for PP still got more to read and write on ):

pepper miss salt

Mood: Happy (:

Finally change a new blog skin (:
Find this blog skin very nice and meaingful in some way (:

2 more days for NCC. I am gonna face a lot of good paddler in K1 but I will not give up. Instead I will do 101% to show them I am not lousy and make my team proud of me too. JIAYOU

Happy 1st (:

<3

It had been so long since I blog. Actually quite a number of thing happen.
At times I am really confuse what should I do.